Posts by fresh prince of ohio

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

It's so sad that she doesn't understand that she's needy and exhausting. She needs so much, that I don't think life can ever give her, and I wonder if she'll just die alone and confused and hearbroken.

Life....you are terrible.

Can you all see why i was such easy pickings for the jaydubs? I'm just so freaking sad over all the suffering in the world. I really really am. That message of human perfection, freedom from pain and death and emotional suffering....it all sounded so so good to me. Like beyond good. I was thrilled beyond measure to have gained that hope.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

see jgnat, the thing is, is she wasn't all dysfunctional neediness. She really is a very sweet, likeable, and big-hearted person. And she's been hurt a lot in life, and she found REFUGE in me. Is that so bad? To be a place of refuge for a person that, although deeply flawed, has a good heart?

I feel like i turned my back on a good friend. I think about trying to be friends with her, but that could be a serious minefield. Not sure if it could be negotiated.

I became a JW mostly because I was extremely idealistic, and saw life in THIS WORLD as being so empty and painful and sad. All those feelings have come rushing back in on me so hard since this relationship ended. Those feelings about drove me mad as a young man, and it's not much better now.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

perfect1, funny how my memory is starting to play tricks on me. I just want to believe that it was salvageable. So that I can go rescue her. Because she needs to be rescued and it's all on me.

She can't stand on her own two feet, emotionally or otherwise. And I abandoned her to this nasty world.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

I wonder if I have some deep rooted fear of intimacy, and in fact do really love her, but am scared to death to commit.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

I'm just so sad all the time. losing weight and barely functioning.

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Do you detect an underlying sadness ?

by Phizzy in

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whenever i talk to jw's, and even in some of the jw official videos, i detect a definite vibe of sadness coming off these people.. i am very sensitive to "atmospheres" and to peoples emotional state, you wouldn't think so, because more often than not i do not react to what i detect, i just let people get on with it.. but i do get this feeling that they are sad, probably because very, very, very deep down they realise that it is all false, maybe ?.

fresh prince of ohio

The last time I attended a meeting at the JW assembly hall in London Ohio was in 2001. I remember looking around at the people sitting in their chairs, hearing the same old thing. I found the whole scene to be incredibly saddening, so much so that I just had to get up and leave. Probably some of it was me projecting though as I was going through a very difficult time.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

Gosh. It's not getting better. It just gets worse.

This is like survivor's guilt or something. Like last night i went out with some friends and it's like i can hardly enjoy myself - all i can think about is that she's alone in her condo, with her financial problems, and her uncertain future, and feeling like she has nothing to live for or hope for.

I wonder if I'm just projecting all of this?

I wonder if I should just go back to her and make the best of it?

The financial issues bother me the most. I'm lucky in that I've made it out of the ever-swelling nickeled-and-dimed-to-death ranks of the working poor in the US; i make a decent income and I don't have money worries right now. The same is not the case for her and I doubt that it ever will be.

I want to rescue her so bad. Is that true love?

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

I just can't stand the thought of her sitting at her condo being sad and crying and feeling lonely.

Plus I was reading tonight that the US economy is going to collapse soon. Who is going to protect her from the marauding bands? not joking

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

That eharmony article is all about, 'here's how to FIX your co-D relationship' not end it.

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breakup guilt

by fresh prince of ohio in

i recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.

i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.

she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.

fresh prince of ohio

I'm thinking about inviting her to couples counseling. I find that the idea of never seeing her again is just not sitting well and that we can work things out.